This is what I feel like these days - Rosei the Riveter - trying to balance my life as a wife, mother but work a full-time job as well.
After Emmalee was born and I went back to work, I, like I know so many other moms, felt guilty about leaving her. It was an extremely emotional time for me - this was my sweet baby girl and I was leaving her. But I had full confidence in the private sitter Brant and I chose, and day-by-day the guilt faded away.
However, I hated the fact that I worked almost an hour away from home. My days started at 6 when I got out of bed, made my cup of joe, then got myself ready. At 7, I work Emmalee up, dressed her, fed her, spent a little one-on-one time with her, then we left the house by 8. Dropped her off with Ms. Regina at 8:20, then headed to the office. Worked from 9-6, then get home to my husband and baby around 7. Walk in the door, feed a starving Emmalee, fix dinner, eat around 8, clean the kitchen, put Em to bed, go to bed and get ready to do it all over again. After a few weeks, I was okay to be working, but I hated that I lost so much time during the day with Emmalee.
So I started looking at what else was out there, and was incredibly fortunate to receive a job offer just a few short weeks into my search. I got the privilege of going to work for a large, reputable company who values family. I am only about 20 minutes from home now, but I get to set my own hours. Brant and I both leave the house around 7:30 and both get home around 5:30. I finally get to relax in the evenings and play with Emmalee - I usually get a good 3 hours with her before she goes to bed.
I won't lie, I still have some guilt about working, but its what my family needs. At this moment, I can just be thankful that the Lord answered our prayers and provided something 1) with a pay raise, 2) a family-friendly job (which my law firm was NOT), 3) much closer to home, and 4) with better hours. Brant and I feel blessed that I was given this opportunity.
So, if you want to know why I have been on blog hiatus, its because I have been busy with a new job, enjoying fixed dinner for my family (that now eats around 6), and playing with the sweetest baby girl I know! Life, for the Williams, is good!
3 comments:
That is awesome!!! Those evenings times are so precious and make sure you make the most of them. Just remember laundry and everything can wait until she is in bed so you can all spend time together as a family.
I can definitely relate!! It is so hard to balance everything but you are right, you have to do what is best for your family :) Glad you were able to find a great opportunity so quickly!
Congrats on the new job - balancing work and family life is a never ending challenge...somehow more heartfelt by mamas, I think. Keeping the bigger picture in mind helps so much as does having great childcare. It sounds like you're doing a great job, with lots of options!
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