An Only Child

Today Kelly's Korner SYUL is about having an only child. 

The crazy thing is that I almost skipped right over it because I have never thought of Emmalee as an only child, but I guess she is. 

Brant and I have always wanted to have two children.  I have always wanted more, but Brant said he would be very happy with two.  I also never thought it would take us 2 years to get pregnant with Emmalee, so we got a later start than we anticipated...so maybe two is all we will have...or maybe just one. 

After I stopped nursing Emmalee I wondered how long it would take for my body to ovulate and for my hormones to get "back to normal", or at least what would be normal for me.  I talked to my doctor's office and we set a "game plan," if you can call it that, maybe the word "timeline" is better.  Anyways, after talking with to the office, I talked to Brant about if he thought I would still be "out of whack" after having a baby.  It was an interesting conversation but it also made me think...what if Emmalee is our only child?

It wasn't an easy thought just because I've always had my life planned out and, in those plans, I am always having two babies...a girl and a boy.  But you know saying:

"If you want to see God laugh, tell Him your plans." 

But after a few days of this weighing heavily on my mind, I cam to realize that I am happy.  My dreams of being a mom came true the moment they placed that little baby on my chest a mere 6 months ago. 

I have an amazing husband, and a gorgeous daughter, a fabulous family, a roof over my head and a job I like...what more do I need?   So I am content to simply trust in His plan instead of mine. 

I know one thing is for certain, if this little girl is an only child, its ok because this smile has absolutely stolen my heart!