Monday, April 7, 2008

Confession...am I crazy???

Ok, let's just get down to business...I HAVE BABY FEVER! For real this time - its not puppy fever like last time! I want to have a baby!

Allow me to preface this post by saying that ALL weekend long, I was around babies. My sister, her friend Toi, myself and some others had a garage sale at Sister's house this weekend, so I was at Sister's house most of the week helping to get things ready. Well everytime I'm at Sister's house, I get to play with my babies, include Ethan who is only 5 months old. Then, Toi, is expecting...(like only 7 days from now expecting)...her third, and first girl. So this garage sale was filled with old baby things, and Toi's baby boy things...and there was just baby stuff all around. Then, to make matters worse, my cousin Krystal came in town with her hubs Matthew to go to the races yesterday. They also have a 5 month old, Michelle. Now, Michelle is a HIGH MAINTENANCE BABY...like, "you need to hold me all the time or I will scream" kind of high maintenance. Well, Krystal had asked me awhile back if I would watch Michelle while they went to the races, and of course I accepted. Although it was kind-of a rough day, I loved having a baby in my house...I loved it!!!!

To make matters worse, my "girlfriends circle" consists of 6...myself, Sarah, Michelle, Jessica, Mary and Jill. Sarah is the only one NOT married, and the others...either pregnant (3 of them) or trying to get pregnant (1 of them). So when I talk to my girlfriends, what is the topic of choice...BABIES!!!!!

So now, I officially have baby-fever. Those of you who have known me for awhile know that I LOVE and ADORE babies...I have longed to be a mother since before I can remember. And now, being surrounded by babies, doesn't help. Now Brant and I have discussed the topic of growing our family and basically decided that we would begin trying beginning of next year. By our calculations, if we got pregnant in January or February, we would have been married a little over 2 years when the baby actually arrived...a great plan in our minds. But let me let you in on a little secret...I DON'T THINK I WANT TO WAIT THAT LONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So this morning, I actually asked Brant: "Would you think I was crazy if I told you I had baby fever really bad?" His answer: "yes.....very, very yes!!!" So ladies, I ask you to pray for me, not necessarily for patience, (because I know what can happen when you pray for patience) but for contentment. Pray that I will be content with waiting, as planned, or until the Father would bless me with a child. Pray that His will is done in our lives as we explore the new world of being married and beginning a family. Pray that in all things, we will glorify Him and follow the path He has set before us.

Much love,
Ashley

8 comments:

Melissa said...
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Caroline said...

ooooooooooooooooo i have baby fever too....WAIT I'M NOT EVEN MARRIED OR DATING!!!!!!! YICKS!!!!! ok so i want to be married and i want to have a baby asap........but i just wait for His perfect timing. I will pray that for you too. BUT GIRL I UNDERSTAND!!!!!!! i do i do

...thanks for the update on Jessica!!!!!! I was glad to see it!!!

Grimes Life said...

Oh how I love that you have the fever! Welcome in! I give it about 6 months! YAY! Trying to have a baby is so much fun!

Amanda said...

Well, I was going to write one thing, but after I read your last paragraph I am going to hold my tongue! I will say that you are so cut out to be a mommy and I know you are going to be a GREAT one. God will bless you for honoring your hubby in this. Enjoy a little more time with Brant before your body is taken over by soreness, bloating, nausea, headaches, mood swings, and a growing tummy. Which are all totally worth it, by the way. Love you!

Melissa said...

Okay, so I read the last part wrong haha....I know how you feel! I've had baby fever for awhile now, and I'm not even married yet. I want to spend time with just Bobby before we start having kids, so I'm sure it's very hard! I will definitely pray for you some patience, I will just throw it in when I'm asking God for mine haha :) Good luck!!

wetherell said...

I am totally in your boat.... but I cannot wait! But I have to until August.... After Sudan.
I will pray for you, no doubt about it sister!!!
But if Gods plan if for you to start trying in August, the same time as me.... I will be totally for that also!!!

Janelle & Ella said...

Dido what Amanda said!! You are going to be the greatest mom ever! Your ability to take care of babies, like Ella, is incredible. But she's right, enjoy this time with just you and Brant because it will change your world more than you can imagine. When the time comes, it will be so fun! And also dido what Corey said, we are having to wait until after the Sudan trip too, but it is SO hard!

The Roaming Southerner said...

Ohhh I have gone through my moments of baby fever too. The funny thing is that when I have my fever, my husband always plays the rational "we need to wait" card very well...and when my fever breaks, he will turn to me and say, "wow, a baby would be good now."

He is a mess. And last year I went through that being around baby mamas all the time. It is brutal!

Everytime I would get that fever from the babies I would ask God to make my husband ready if it was time...that would be a sign from God.

good luck with the fevah...btw. I like the praying for contentment not patience. NICE

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